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[22 Aug 2003|03:42am] |
so i made a new lj. its the same just a new name.
upxtoxourxhips
add me you fuck.
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[21 Aug 2003|11:39am] |
so i pulled a lacy last night. yes. i went and poked myself full of more holes. i got my teardrops pierced and the broken hearts i wanted on my collarbone. then in n out, and that was just good business.
best line of the night.
-you have glue sticks in your ears thats disgusting.
-do you really think it's disgusting?
-i want to stick my penis into somebody's butthole how could i think its disgusting.
( vwaaaahlahhh )
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[20 Aug 2003|03:18am] |
because now im on the floor.
and now you win.
b y de fa u l t.
because baby, i quit before you ever started playing.
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| note to self. |
[19 Aug 2003|12:58am] |
bane
suicide file
all bets off.
monday at the pound.
must go.
saturday you're seeing terror throwdown and every time i die. lets not pull a stevie and break your hip and you jaw. <3
october 19th at the pound. EIGHTEEN FUCKING VISIONS.
::dies::
nov. 5th
further seems forever
shai hulud.
shit fuck im excited.
for the following reasons;
1)show this saturday.
2)i have a mullet
3)my birthday is coming up
4)ANDREW IS COMING TO VISIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
shitmotherfuckergoddamn
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| for steph and stevie. <3 |
[17 Aug 2003|03:42pm] |
this is the soundtrack
To saying goodbye
We are making out
With desperate days
So turn the volume up high
(You love it)
God bless repeat - play nights
Heartbreaks and fights
And all the pretty kids
With the tired tired eyes
Sitting out parties
To be with your headphones
Reciting your last words
And writing your last notes
This is the soundtrack
To saying goodbye
For feeling cold like December
In the middle of July (so fuck it)
We are dead flowers
And pocket change - me
Forcing smiles - so tragic baby
We are the depressed
Future heartbreakers
And this is how we sound
Sometimes I just want to fade away
With no goodbyes - or anything
I slept right through the yesterdays
'Cause everybody was in my way
This is the soundtrack
To saying goodbye
We are dropping coins
Into dead payphones
To hear the sound of our voice
Just to know we're alone
And it's beyond me
Why people couldn't see
We were the true meaning of beauty
humming "love"
With stiches in our hands
So young, I broke a wall with my hand
That broke a heart with a pen
So young, I was singing
"Love" in my head
And if you know what I know
Then you know that love is dead
We were born just to fade away
With no goodbyes - or anything
We slept right through the yesterdays
'Cause everybody was in our way
Goodbye my love
You can have my heart
This is volume three of our tragedy
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[16 Aug 2003|07:43pm] |
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xLOVExCOREx
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| i should die. |
[14 Aug 2003|08:08pm] |
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:38 PM]: ahah hang on
xknifefight2kx [7:44 PM]: yep... hanging on.
xknifefight2kx [7:44 PM]: yeah im just haning on
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:44 PM]: ahah sorry
xknifefight2kx [7:44 PM]: still haning on
xknifefight2kx [7:44 PM]: hahh
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:44 PM]: im typing out an lyrics
xknifefight2kx [7:44 PM]: you are always typing out an lyrics
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:46 PM]: i know
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:46 PM]: cause i love an
xknifefight2kx [7:47 PM]: yeah i know that.
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:47 PM]: id hope so
xknifefight2kx [7:48 PM]: yeah well i know stuff you dont know..
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:48 PM]: what?
xknifefight2kx [7:49 PM]: hahah.. umm i kinda miss you.
xknifefight2kx [7:49 PM]: but minus the kinda
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:49 PM]: haha
xknifefight2kx [7:50 PM]: read above^^
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:50 PM]: i did
xknifefight2kx [7:50 PM]: yah
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:50 PM]: well
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:51 PM]: i miss my heart.so i think
it about evens out.
xknifefight2kx [7:52 PM]: thats true...
xknifefight2kx [7:52 PM]: would you ever bewithmeagain
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:53 PM]: awww
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:53 PM]: no, i just really didnt like that
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:53 PM]: shit, that sounded bitchy
xknifefight2kx [7:54 PM]: i don'tknowwhattosayanymor
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:54 PM]: it doesnt matter
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:55 PM]: it enver did.
xknifefight2kx [7:55 PM]: IDONTKNOWWHATTOSAY
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:55 PM]: YOU NEVER DID
xknifefight2kx [7:56 PM]: im sorry
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:56 PM]: fool
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:56 PM]: dont be sorry
xknifefight2kx [7:57 PM]: yah looking back i would have done a lot of things differently.
Xxheartsxbreakxx [7:58 PM]: like what?
xknifefight2kx [8:00 PM]: lots of stuff. like not be an ass. and talk to you more.
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:00 PM]: you were never an ass
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:00 PM]: you were never mean
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:00 PM]: and you didnt do anything wrong
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:00 PM]: you just werent
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:00 PM]: .......
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:00 PM]: what i wanted
xknifefight2kx [8:01 PM]: yeah i dont understand that.
xknifefight2kx [8:01 PM]: why would you even bother with me.
xknifefight2kx [8:02 PM]: somehow i was what you wanted at least at the begining..
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:02 PM]: yes
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:02 PM]: you were
xknifefight2kx [8:02 PM]: and that was me being the real me.
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:02 PM]: that first night
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:03 PM]: and then somethign happened
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:03 PM]: i dont know what
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:03 PM]: it was just ddifferent
xknifefight2kx [8:03 PM]: then somehow i always turn into a different person
xknifefight2kx [8:03 PM]: yeah i think it was just me being nervous around you
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:03 PM]: maybe
xknifefight2kx [8:04 PM]: and i never felt like i could say what i wanted
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:04 PM]: why?
xknifefight2kx [8:05 PM]: because when i first met you i didnt care what you thought of me. then i started to care and didnt know what to do.
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:05 PM]: why didnt you care?
xknifefight2kx [8:06 PM]: i dont know.. i didnt think you liked me that much.
Xxheartsxbreakxx [8:06 PM]: i did
xknifefight2kx [8:07 PM]: yeah i know that now.
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| in a league of your own. |
[12 Aug 2003|01:51am] |
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i see so much in you.
i dont know which is actually there and which im just hoping and praying for.
you showed me that no one is perfect.
its a good thing.
you make me want to give up on everything.
i thought you were the hope i'd been waiting for.
but im not so sure.
you're the same.
ill always be the next best thing,
second place.
i know that.
i've been through too much and waited too long for this.
and i wont give my heart to anything less than my dream.
you were it.
but its ruined.
fate doesnt exist.
"tell all the stars that the stars are no more"
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[12 Aug 2003|01:00am] |
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i cant live with these regrets.
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[11 Aug 2003|06:03pm] |
Pick ANY 15 LJ users. Without revealing their names, say something about (or to) each one of them (Something = Nice, not so nice, ugly). Never reveal who is what. Be expressive
1. my fucking god you have the most beautiful heart. id be first on your list so your first on mine, you are one of two people i know that has never done anything to hurt anyone. you care about people, and to me that makes you more amazing than anythign i nthe world. nxa. ;)
2. my best friend. you are wonderufl in everyway.you are ALWAYS THERE FOR ME. you give me a reason to live. and i hope one day i can do the same for you. its been a long long time. you know me better than anyone in the world. we always know what eachother is thinking. ALWAYS. ITS GREAT. chyme chyme.
3. i wish i saw you more. i wish things were the wya they were. i wish we could go back. i know your heart is still beautiful, and i will ALWAYS love you. regardless of how much we see eachother or talk. your smile reminds me of me,and you,and her,growing up together.
4. i fell in love in a matter of ten minutes, and fell out in five. you arent what i thought you were, your self absorbed, and i gave up on you.
5. YOU ARE SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL. i havent talked to you more than a few times. but you fucking care so much about your friends. it amazes me how much life means to you.
6. you say things without regard, your naive, and you give off false impressions. you changed. i love you, i just wish you considered other people more.
7. i didnt see how incredible you were in the time where it mattered. i dont regret what happened but i wish i would have done thigns differently.
8. you should hate me.....i was incredibly selfish. you forgave me and it means the world.
9. MY WIFE. i love you sooooo much. we can understand eachother because we've been through the same things. i look up to you. id give up my life if it meant your happiness because you deserve it so much more than anyone i know. COME BACK TO ME NOW.
10. you fascinate me so much. more than any other boy ever has. all ive ever wanted was to be close to you. i havent figured out why just yet. words cant describe.
11. one word, SUPERMODEL. you never deserve to be hurt. your heart is pure. i dont know you very well, but i can tell your a beautiful person.
12. i dont have much to say about you, because you never let me see who you really were. you talk about people behind their backs. it seems like no one can ever be good enough for you. they always seem to have some flaw that you dont approve of. or this is what ive seen.
13. i hope someday we'll be able to get along.......
14. stop giving everyone advice they dont need. and stop fucking trying so hard.
15. this one is for me.
stop pushing people away.
stop being so dramatic.
your heart is so hard, but its so fragile. you make it that way. stop trusting people, stop not trusting people.
stop seeing people for who they really are because usually its not good.
stop trying to be so fucking dramatic about life.
let people know how much you care about them.
sya what you want to say.
you let people in to easy, yet you never let anyone in.
stop trying to have everythign under control.
LIVE.
forget the past.
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[11 Aug 2003|10:08am] |
how many lines are you going to tell?
how many lies are you going to tell?
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[11 Aug 2003|12:54am] |
And all I ever wanted
Was to not be alone
I've been wearing this new outfit called
"Quit while you're ahead"
Your smiles are the end
Your eyes are the end
I was hoping I'd never
Have to write this song again
The kind of song that makes
You want to hang
Your headached head
And I was hoping
That I would never fall in love again
Cause that would be the end
Of everything (you're everything)
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| delayed reaction. |
[10 Aug 2003|08:10pm] |
just remember one thing lacy,
......you will ALWAYS be second best.
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